I'm a romantic.

I’m one of the only friends I have not in a relationship, and I’ve realized over the last few months that I’ve truly missed out on something. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve dated several people off and on but I’ve never had a relationship.

Everyone’s in love, and they have someone that’s in love with them too. I’m not saying these relationships don’t have pitfalls or fights, because they do. But that doesn’t change the fact that these people are in love.

I don’t want to go into the debate on whether or not teenagers can indeed and in fact be in love, because from my point of view that doesn’t even matter. The point is, they think they’re in love and in the end that’s all that counts.

My age group has the prime falling in love years, and I feel bad that I’ve miss out. Not that I’ve missed out on *loving* people, because I have. I just haven’t found anyone that’s shared the affection.

High school and summer romances always got me.

I just feel like I’ve missed something special, something I'd really rather have not missed.

I guess in the end I’m just a lonely romantic, pining for things that weren’t meant to be.

But I wonder if these childhood romances, (no matter how fleeting) help shape our futures.

These relationships which, although we may not think so, are so simple compared to those of our parents who have gone through death, life, mortgages and children together. Maybe the thought that a relationship can be as simple as it was when you were in high school keeps you going, keeps you working on it.

I guess I’ll never know.

<3

Brianna